I know that the anniversary of the death of your dear loved one has passed and I wanted you to know that you were in my thoughts. I hope that you are continuing strong and remembering the beautiful memories you have of Joel. The difficult time of losing someone we love posts many questions in our minds, and leaves a hole in our hearts. May God's Word bring you hope and strength to endure. Continue to keep in mind the hope mentioned at John 5:28,29 which says, "Do not be amazed at this, because the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out." This means you have the hope of being reunited with your dead loved ones. Certainly that's a time you look forward to. My thoughts and prayers are with the family during this time of remembrance.